signs

This morning I announced to Jack that I am getting too old for my Friday job. I said this from a place of inadequacy. Monday through Thursday, I've got it. I know that I am doing a great job with the kids I work with. I have been well-trained (thank you, Barbara Hodson!) and understand the intricacies of improving the speech intelligibility of the children I work with. When I leave for work Mon-->Thurs, I look forward to my day.
On Fridays, it's different. I am "related services" to kids (mostly boys) who have a wide variety of speech and language needs. I am not an expert in all areas of communication needs and I do not like that feeling that I am not giving them all that they need. Plus I am not good at restraining anymore, except for a finger while my teammates are doing all the heavy work.
Then today, God gave me signs throughout the day that I was enough.
Not perfect, but enough.
I care and I am trying and that's enough.
The signs included a morning Social Skills group with full participation, productive individual speech sessions, a great afternoon with the middle school kids, including a surprise pop-in visit with a former student who is now a senior in high school and wants to join the Air Force next year, a quick visit with a former coworker who lost her dad recently (profound discussion about what matters in life).
God is so good. He had the perfect plan for my life and continues to guide my steps.